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The First Holy Hour

There are, in the life of the believer, occasions when the Lord seems to slumber. It isn’t that He feels completely absent—as He did to St. John of the Cross, Bl. Teresa of Calcutta, and others who have experienced the dark night of the soul—but one senses He is not present and active either. You find yourself in some distress, acutely aware of your neediness, and the Lord is suddenly unresponsive.“Your favor had set me on a mountain fastness,” delights the Psalmist, but “then you hid your face and I was put to confusion” (Ps 30:7). During his final General Audience, Pope Benedict similarly admitted there were times during his papacy when the Lord “seemed to be sleeping.” It may not be the soul’s dark night, but it makes for a spiritual midnight.

The Lord also, in a sense, knows the feeling. More precisely, He knows the feeling of unresponsive followers:

And he came to the disciples and found them asleep. He said to Peter, ‘So you could not keep watch with me for one hour?’ (Mt 26:40)

In his autobiography, Venerable Fulton J. Sheen recounts how he resolved at the time of his ordination to make a Holy Hour every single day as a priest, so as to strive to become ever more present to Christ. One afternoon years later, in the midst of a busy European trip, Sheen found an opportunity to slip into the Church of Saint-Roch in Paris, to make good on his resolution for that day. No sooner had he settled into his prayer, however, than his eyes closed and his head drooped.

He was out cold.

Sheen awoke exactly sixty minutes later. He asked the Lord, “Have I made a Holy Hour?” He thought he heard an angel reply, “Well, that’s the way the Apostles made their first Holy Hour in the Garden, but don’t do it again.”

Sheen leaves off there, offering no additional commentary about this episode. Nor do the Gospels contain any response from Peter, James, and John when Jesus finds them asleep. What could they have said for themselves? Though physically present at Gethsemane, they weren’t exactly present to Gethsemane. Only hours earlier they were promising they would sooner die together with Him than deny Him (Mt 26:35). Now, when Jesus had asked for much less—their companionship for a lone hour—they could not deny their weary eyes, weighed down by grief.

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